I just finished my last two surgical cases as a resident. Wow. That's pretty amazing...and kindof unbelievable. It literally feels like I just moved here...and in one hour I offically move away. I wanted to jot down these feelings...as I will never again be on this side of it all....so I sit here in the hospital library, 15 minutes before my check out papers are signed by the powers that be.
Residency was hard. Some days were grueling. Some days I HATED this profession. Some days I hated lots of things...coworkers...patients...supervisors... insurance companies (I will probably always hate insurance companies). There were days where I felt like the world was against me...out to get me...out to serve my head on a silver platter. And those days weren't fun. It was hard to breath...at times it would be hard to smile. But at the end of those days...when I would go home...and my little girl would run to me with her huge gorgeous smile I would forget my sour day.
Medicine is not an easy field...there are a billion variables...and many of those variables are constantly shifting. I'm delighted to be involved in healthcare and I feel so fortunate that I had this experience...it's definetely made a better person. A truly phenomenal opportunity this whole adventure was. My co-workers were the best part. The people that I worked with daily...my team...my friends. Only WE knew what the other was going through...that's a special bond that will keep us connected. I already miss these people...really really miss them.
I'm still not entirely sure if I would chosen this path again...but I am so very excited for our future and my practice in Arizona. Thank you for being there along the way.
I think today will be my last entry in this space. I have so delighted in having a little virtual world where I could share my thoughts and experiences...and getting to know so many of you has been such a blessing. SUCH a blessing. What started out as a place to store my wedding ideas, morphed into a place where my LIFE was shared...our engagement, our lovely little wedding,the births of our two precious babies...the challenges of residency...the balancing act of it all. It's been one learning experience after another. It will never end. Our book is big and my next chapter begins now.